thank you (falettinme be mice elf agin).

Today, I spent 23 years under the radar.

Lookin' at the devil
Grinnin' at his gun
Fingers start shakin'
I begin to run
Bullets start chasin'
I begin to stop
We begin to wrestle
I was on the top

I received a birthday call from S this morning. She has known me since high school and well she's the only one that tells me how it is, with a nudge in the ribs. She asked,"How is your day so far?" and I replied, "I hate this time of year." Rather, "I hate this time of my life" would have been more appropriate.

I want to thank you falettinme
Be mice elf agin
Thank you falettinme
Be mice elf agin

Stiff all in the collar
Fluffy in the face
Chit chat chatter tryin'
Stuffy in the place
Thank you for the party
But I could never stay
Many thangs is on my mind
Words in the way

It is common knowledge that I am mental. My defensive thinking is to set myself up for failure so that I don't fall so far or so that it's not a surprise when it happens. However, rationally, what I have been doing is not committing to something and just failing to decide on my path. What I have decided on is to not make any commitments this year. I just want to bask under the sun without obligations. I need it's warmth and anything that gets in my way will harm me. I need to be free. I wouldn't survive any other way.

I want to thank you falettinme
Be mice elf agin
Thank you falettinme
Be mice elf agin

Dance to the music
All nite long
Everyday people
Sing a simple song
Mama's so happy
Mama start to cry
Papa still singin'
You can make it if you try

In terms of the one that seems to get under my skin lately. That is not normal. The bubble just burst. In the meantime, sewing class exasperates me and makes me want to buy more dresses than I would ever have the patience to make.

I want to thank you falettinme
Be mice elf agin
(Different strokes for different folks, yeah)
Thank you falettinme
Be mice elf agin

Flamin' eyes of people fear
Burnin' into you
Many men are missin' much
Hatin' what they do
Youth and truth are makin' love
Dig it for a starter, now
Dyin' young is hard to take
Sellin' out is harder

Aren't we all fearful people in general? I am tremendously fearful. I fear the known, status quo, and what lies ahead. I need to start looking into alternatives to finding a job/life. Most of all I need to commit. To something. Thank you falettinme be mice elf agin.

Thank you falettinme
Be mice elf agin
I want to thank you falettinme
Be mice elf agin
Thank you falettinme
Be mice elf agin
Thank you falettinme
Be mice elf agin
I want to thank you falettinme
Be mice elf agin