if it's the beaches.

Don't say it's over
Cause that's the worst news I could hear I swear that I will
Do my best to be here just the way you like it
Even though its hard to hide
Push my feelings all aside
I will rearrange my plans and change for you

Today, I look forward to tomorrow. I loathe holidays, but I think I'll suck it up. Nothing could be worse than last year, right? I am very excited to hear The Avett Bros. I looove love love this song. Would love someone to mean these words to me, but that can't really happen until I can mean these words to myself.

If I could go back
That's the first thing I would do I swear that I would
Do my best to follow through
Come up with a master plan
A home run hit, a winning stand
A guarantee and not a promise
That I'll never let your love slip from my hands

I let love for myself slip from my hand and lose perspective in the relationships I yearn to have. I need to go back and gain my steely wits about me. In the words of Animal Liberation Orchestra, "feeling lost in the grandeur of dreams".

If it's the beaches
If it's the beaches' sands you want
Then you will have them
If it's the mountains' bending rivers
Then you will have them
If it's the wish to run away
Then I will grant it
Take whatever what you think of
While I go gas up the truck
Pack the old love letters up
We will read them when we forget why we left here

So do I pack the old love letters up? When I read them will I forget or remember why I left here.