so damn lucky.

Every things different
With my head in the clouds
I hit this corner
With my foot on the gas
I started sliding, I lose it
Every things different just like that

On the flip side of cynicism and self-pity, I realized that I am so damn lucky. My foot is always on the gas and I don't ever comprehend why things turn out differently then I expected. I love the part in Serendipity when John Cusack's friend writes his obituary in reference to the great rhetoricians of ancient Greece and Rome and asks, "Did he have passion?" and shouldn't that suffice the matter of success?

Oh my God, wait and see
What will soon become of me?
Frozen heart
Screaming wheels
Does that screaming come from me?

I am very anxious to fast forward through the credits of now to the complex story of tomorrow. Patience is a virtue I strive to learn everyday. Remember those books written in parts, "If you think Charlie will stab Sarah turn to page 34. If you think Sarah will run away screaming turn to page 48." I guess I really wasn't into the mystery because I always read both parts.

So damn lucky, that you went on ahead
You said, you said
"I'll see you later..."
I heard what you said a few minutes later
Now I'm sliding
And every things different again

No matter where you are in life, you thank your lucky stars for those little lessons before and can at least find the silver lining in a negative outlook. Every year I laugh that I dated so and so, who I probably loathe more than anyone I know. But why? I must have liked him once...right? I can't believe I did that drunk, sober, with confidence, while vulnerable...Yet, I never cease to amaze myself that my predictability is fated with unpredictable events. And it leads me to wonder if subconsciously we decide on our own fate.

Oh my God, wait and see
What will soon become of me?
This frozen heart
Screaming wheels
Does that screaming come from me?
I'm dizzy from all this spinning

After all isn't predestination like those mystery books we read in parts. Is fate the fork in the road and the ultimate decision depends on taking the road less traveled, or not? I wonder if I am picking my fate that I know will not bring me happiness or strike such fervor in my future to deem me passionate. What if I am chasing a dream that I think will bring me happiness. Now here's the kicker, deep down, I know I am not ready for that kind of happiness in my life yet. Maybe I am setting myself up for disappointment because I can't handle anything better than that.

Now I'm thinking that you did all you could
When you said "My love
Take it slowly..."
"Ok," is what I said
Oh my God, wait and see
What will soon become of me?

Chatting with K, today, we thought maybe we are attracted to people and situations that are so similar to our nature so we don't have to settle with a conclusion. Some would argue that we set up these walls to see who can break them down. But who will rescue you from yourself? Is it because you have passion? To find out, turn to page 64...

PS. Dave and Trey are in Senegal, in this video, jamming with the Orchestra Baobab. The Wolof, Senegalese, language they chant in the end means "Give me what you have". It's really beautiful, don't you think? To the universe, I ask you to give me what you have, you may ask the same of me and I will oblige :)